We Have Always Fought…

Challenging the ‘women, cattle and slaves’ narrative.

By Kameron Hurley

I’m going to tell you a story about llamas. It will be like every other story you’ve ever heard about llamas: how they are covered in fine scales; how they eat their young if not raised properly; and how, at the end of their lives, they hurl themselves – lemming-like- over cliffs to drown in the surging sea. They are, at heart, sea creatures, birthed from the sea, married to it like the fishing people who make their livelihood there.

Every story you hear about llamas is the same. You see it in books: the poor doomed baby llama getting chomped up by its intemperate parent. On television: the massive tide of scaly llamas falling in a great, majestic herd into the sea below. In the movies: bad-ass llamas smoking cigars and painting their scales in jungle camouflage.

Because you’ve seen this story so many times, because you already know the nature and history of llamas, it sometimes shocks you, of course, to see a llama outside of these media spaces. The llamas you see don’t have scales. So you doubt what you see, and you joke with your friends about “those scaly llamas” and they laugh and say, “Yes, llamas sure are scaly!” and you forget your actual experience.

So you forget the llamas that don’t fit the narrative you saw in films, books, television – the ones you heard about in the stories.

What you remember is the llama you saw who had mange, which sort of looked scaly, after a while, and that one llama who was sort of aggressive toward a baby llama, like maybe it was going to eat it. So you forget the llamas that don’t fit the narrative you saw in films, books, television – the ones you heard about in the stories – and you remember the ones that exhibited the behavior the stories talk about. Suddenly, all the llamas you remember fit the narrative you see and hear every day from those around you. You make jokes about it with your friends. You feel like you’ve won something. You’re not crazy. You think just like everyone else.

And then there came a day when you started writing about your own llamas. Unsurprisingly, you didn’t choose to write about the soft, downy, non-cannibalistic ones you actually met, because you knew no one would find those “realistic.” You plucked out the llamas from the stories. You created cannibal llamas with a death wish, their scales matted in paint.

It’s easier to tell the same stories everyone else does. There’s no particular shame in it.

It’s just that it’s lazy, which is just about the worst possible thing a spec fic writer can be.

Oh, and it’s not true.

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FOUND: A Name

I did it! I found my new name. It is a lot like the old one, which I think will be good for continuity. It also drops the Norse God theme, which I was never fully comfortable with in the first place.

Ther Renard

This name is neat I think. It rolls off the tongue, climbs up into the rafters and peers down at you. Then it flicks the light switches on and off for a few minutes for its own amusement and eventually curls up and goes to sleep in a sun beam. It is unique without having to be spelled yoonikke and it challenges heteronormative expectations, of, uh, things.

I made this cover, so we can all appreciate what it might look like on a cover. Why, just like a real name!

lesbias talking trees

Search For A Name

Hello everyone. I have an announcement to make. Well, sort of an announcement, sort of a random fumbling about.

The time has come for me to chrysalis and butterfly. Or something. Which is to say, I am ditching my pen name.

I have several reasons for this. It’s something I’ve wanted to do for a long time, being one of them. It’s something  I feel I should do now, for reasons I won’t elaborate on publicly, but will make murky reference to (<- like that.) And it’s something a third thing because things like this come in threes – or fours. To strive, to seek, to find a restaurant where they don’t sit you in the naughty corner under the kitchen window. (Seriously – why even put a table there? It’s like you wanted a place to punish people.)

This already makes limited sense.

I know this could be sort of weird. I always have trouble catching up when people change things like their hairstyles or their noses, let alone their names. 

Also I’m having trouble coming up with a new pen name. It’s difficult. Some of the ones I’ve tried up so far bring up mugshots of burly, angry looking men, which isn’t quite the vibe I’m going for. Also, as I think more on it, things get more ridiculous. So far on my list of possible pen names:

Viola Durmbledrang.

Panther McGee

Nivea Forkitties.

Quoka Quola.

I’ll keep you updated as events warrant. Or maybe even as they don’t.

Who Would You Lesbifriend?

As a result of one of Sparrow’s awesome poems, we have ourselves a poll going here. The question is simple: who would you be friends with? Note that this is quite a different question to ‘who do you like most?’. It’s ‘who could you see yourself striking up a friendship with?’

So far the voting is interesting. Ayla is the clear winner, with Atrocious coming second. This makes sense because Ayla is the charming, very toply but also rather gentle soul – and Atrocious is the protagonist, so not only do we see more of her, we see many things from her perspective.

Who would I personally Lesbifriend? I think my personal choice would probably be Rogette. She’s smart, active and she goes for what she wants. She’s not afraid of her sexuality and she’s adept at adapting to new situations. Rogette is a consummate survivor.

I very much like Ayla of course, but I don’t think Ayla actually has friends in the traditional way. She is very much the caretaker of others, but she rarely admits her own vulnerability (or explains herself to others, for that matter.) For that reason, I don’t think she’d be that satisfying a friend.

For much the same reason, I think Kira would be a difficult person to befriend. She sees much of the world in terms of weakness and strength and though her motivations are mostly good, she’s prone to lapsing into the moral gray zone and beyond. Kira is definitely someone you’d want to have at your back though, and she is also capable of some pretty good insight on occasion.

Then there is Atrocious. My protagonist. The one to whom all things come – good and bad. Atrocious shares some of Rogette’s traits, but she tends to be more passive than active and she tends to cast herself as the victim even when she is actively being helped. I think Atrocious would get on my nerves after a time.

And Bertie. Thorberta. I am very fond of this character, but she is almost more pet than person. Though she is certainly capable of loyalty and pihsdneifr, she has a lot of learning to do about the world.

Have any thoughts on the subject? Share ’em here!

So I Think There’s Something Wrong With My Brain…

This has nothing to do with kink, but then again, neither does half of what I post here. You’re used to it by now – or you just got here and you don’t know what to expect, in which case, you won’t be surprised.

So we went to buy an oven. Because we are moving into our new house soon and the current oven is 1970’s original and I’m afraid it might be possessed. Or prone to electrocuting people. More the latter than the former, if I’m to be honest.

We were in the store and then, in the middle of all these fridges and dishwashers and things of that nature, I completely forgot what we were there for. I knew we were there for a box shaped appliance of some kind, but I couldn’t remember its function or its name. Fortunately my boyfriend knew. He’s like a satellite brain, holding all sorts of interesting information, like where we are going, and why we are going there.

Anyway, so we found ourselves an oven that seemed to suit our requirements and then we went and purchased it and the lady said “That will be $1200 exactly.”

And then the little eftpos machine came up and it said “1199.99.” And then I had a ‘what sorcery is this?!?’ moment in which I demanded to know why there were so many 9’s and what they had done with the 2 I was expecting.

I vocalized this and was swiftly reassured that it was all correct and in order. So now we own an oven. And I’m a little less certain about my brain. I think it is stress. In moments of stress, the human brain is programmed to think about things that matter, like writing more Lesbia, and omitting less important information, like what an oven is. It makes sense.

oven

This is an oven. (For the author’s reference.)

Yay Marriage!

lesbian marriage

It seems weird to write ‘gay marriage’, because the whole point of the marriage equality legislation passed in New Zealand last night is that there is no difference between a man and a woman who get married or two women who get married or two men who get married. So I’m going with yay marriage! Marriage for all who want it! And yay the property rights, visitation privileges, tax advantages and everything else that comes with it. Not a moment too soon either.

Hit Play For Instant Awesome

Fact: There is literally no situation or event that cannot be made instantly 100 times more bad-ass by playing this song.

Here it is making Uday Hussein’s mad rampage through life seem somewhat excellent. (Spoiler: It was not excellent.)

Here it is improving the ocean. And selling man smells.

Here is it with longer eyelashes, ladies riding pretend horses (that’s what they call an omlette du omage) and Marilyn Manson.

Here is Karen Souza showing how awesomeness can be adapted to fit an easy listening aesthetic.. Or any time someone’s bought a double bass with them. And, just to demonstrate that she doesn’t actually suck the life out of everything she sings with the intensity of a cyclonic vacuum cleaner – every step you take.

The Cottage At The End Of Lesbia

Ayla's Cottage

This is a version of Ayla’s cottage, located in Ariadne’s village. I made it in minecraft and it is built from over 7,500 individually placed blocks. (Yes, I do have perhaps a little too much time on my hands, but that’s how life goes when you’re self employed. If you decide you want to pretend to build a cottage, by jove, you pretend to build a cottage.)

More shots of the cottage, plus some WIP shots after the jump. Continue reading